Those tweets I sent about Duke Ellington
While my mom was being evicted again
According to what ethics under the sun
Can I possibly have been speaking? A
Kind of private feeling I can’t even place here
Like a rock on a tomb or the thank-you
Gift of a guest whose plane leaves long
Before dawn
I feel the little school of minnows
In me changing direction, wavering
Pieces of consciousness eloquently
Describing to me giving up on the thought
Of ever reaching you
Then setting to feeding
On something closer by
An approximation of what
We could have had
One that asks less
Of me. One that asks nothing
Of you.
I put the device back in my pocket & keep walking
How do we decide to reach out to our closest and, at the same time, furthest relations?
Ariana Reines, “INNER LIFE” from A sand book. Copyright © 2019 by Ariana Reines. Reprinted by permission of the publisher.
Source: A sand book (Tin House Books, 2019)