had a dozen foster parents
tell me to run from my mother’s truth
the track marks up her arm,
shy away from the streets
they said ate her alive.
wasn’t until i had rewilded
unto the very streets
that i recognized that it kept her alive.
harm came from
the môniyâw men
lurking in the alleys asking for something more
(like ligament or limb)
wrap their fleshy
digits around ikwe throat
squeeze life like pressing
orange for juice.
most of my mom’s sisters are dead
like her too now—
caught in the crosshairs
of murdered or missing;
their children are working
& i make sure to say hello to my cousins,
we all picked up our mothers’
work eventually.
i have become a regular at the funeral parlour on hastings.
burying parent & child every other week.
don’t have tears left once home, save them
for longer nights
remember there are NDN children
who need to eat still.
i ran onto main and hastings
cried out in anguish, this place called cold
called heartless
called monster & maw
was never the culprit & the blame was never to be
my mother’s or her sisters’—
rather machines of genocide
placed here by
the illegal government voted in
by our now–neighbours.
i’ve found the truth:
the mythos was fabricated;
& there will always be
funerals to attend,
NDN children to feed.
“urban NDNs in the DTES” by jaye simpson from it was never going to be okay, Nightwood Editions, 2020, www.nightwoodeditions.com