If I am judged
If I am punished
If I am dismissed
If I am misunderstood
If I am celebrated
If I am envied
If I am competed with
If I am slandered against
If I am seen
If I am soft
If I am stupid
If I get it
If I surpass
If I intimidate
If I confound
If I confuse
If I’m confused
If I impress
If I delight
If l contradict
If I embarrass
If I’m transparent
If I’m arrogant
If I reproach
If I lamb
If I snake ssss
If I coconut
If I’m crazy
If I’m coo-coo
If I’m weary
If I resist
If I’m easy
If I’m wrong
If I’m wrong — who gives a fuck?
I have to live.
This vibrant list poem celebrates the right to just Be.
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This poem takes the form of a list and, at first glance, that seems rather simple. How do you think a list can be like a poem?
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A list poem often involves repetition. How does the repetition of the word “if” affect the tone of the poem? Do you think the repetition of the word “if” helps to build momentum in the poem? If so, how?
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Poetry has its foundations in oral traditions and, upon reading this poem, it is easy to imagine it spoken aloud. Why is the spoken element important to this poem and whom do you think the speaker is addressing in this poem?
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When you follow the link in the poet’s biography to her own website you will learn that in 2019 Aisha Sasha John won an “Overkill Award” for her “willingness to redefine, to expand and to provoke.” How does this poem provoke?
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This poem is written in short lines with no punctuation. If you were going to recite this poem how would you choose to pace your reading? Would you read some lines slowly and other more quickly? Would you choose to emphasize some lines more than others? And where would you pause?
- Exercise: Write a list poem. Think of how your inventory of items, people, places, or ideas can be used to provoke or to create understanding, or a mood, or another connection with readers. Think about the importance of repetition in a list poem and what word/words might you structure your list around. To get more ideas on how your own list poem could work you might want to look at these other examples of list poems:
https://poetryinvoice.ca/read/when-i-grow-i-want-be-list-further-possibilities
https://poetryinvoice.ca/read/gitanjali-35
https://poetryinvoice.ca/read/praise-rain
Aisha Sasha John, “Regardless” from I have to live. Copyright © 2017 by Aisha Sasha John. Reprinted by permission of the publisher.
Source: I have to live. (McClelland & Stewart, 2017)